dreamin’

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The narrow streets of Cornelia.  June, 2014

Cue background music:  Mamas and Papas “California Dreaming.”

Cue soap box speaker:  I am chewing over two big travel dreams/plans that I need to share.

First, Summer 2016: A week in NYC to visit family and see Hamilton (Yay!) and then 5 weeks in Italy.  Or 4 weeks in Italy and a week in and around London.  Just the tiniest bit anxious about this because I want to buy the airline tickets, not cheap but decent.  Which will change soon.  The week in and around London would be to spend time with Cheshire who will be in Cambridge for a wedding.

Second, Summer 2017-2018: A year abroad.  Julia will be finished with middle school.  I have been pondering taking her out of school for a year to travel.  Using it like a gap year (yes, early, I know) and returning to put her into ninth grade.  Lots of logistics to work out education wise. Continue reading

week of thanks

A week of New York City, Queens, in particular with excursions into Manhattan, the center of  . . .

Julia noticed that the streets of the West Village were “like Torino but in New York.”  She marveled at the windows of Li-Lac Chocolates with dinosaurs, old telephones and a chess set in chocolate.

Julia and I visited Google, as the guest of a cousin.  It is a wonderful, strange, some what disconcerting world.  Huge floors with unusual work spaces– Julia wandered into one, quicker than I could stop her, attracted by the toys on top of a computer–play spaces including a Lego work space that Julia is still talking about.  Honestly, their wall of Lego parts was as big any at the Lego stores.  It is an edgy design, some cool Soho and loft like, some gritty industrial.  Along some halls there are cubbies and hideaways  and the cafeteria, the one that we saw, feeds employees like an upscale restaurant for free.  What would it be like to belong to that club?  Taken care of or shackled?  Or both.  It was fun!  And vaguely scary.  Like dipping into a world apart from the city.  Apart from any life that I have lived.

We spent most of an afternoon at the Guggenheim’s Burri exhibit.  It was all very modern and abstract.  Julia has not been very interested in the abstract but she listened to the commentary (I finally figured out how to download a museum’s app! Yay!) and appreciated many of the pieces.  There was a large canvas that had sheets of metal attached and soldered together on it.  After listening that Burri lived close to a town with notable Renaissance frescos in the churches and how he was influenced by that work, Julia noticed that the solder lines were like a crucifix and the few red splotches are like Jesus’ blood.

Well, I didn’t see that.  All that abstract work, prompted realism and coloring.

Cheshire took us to the Flushing China Town which she claimed was bigger than Manhattan’s.  It was huge, a bit less polished than its Manhattan cousin.  We ate fresh noodles in broth with a few kinds of meat, green veggies and spicy red stuff.  The streets were lit with more signs per building than could possibly be read, reminding me of old pictures of the Lower East Side, long before my tenure in the city.

A few days before we left for NYC, I managed to buy tickets to “Spring Awakening,” a musical revival produced by Deaf West Theater.  It is as splendid as what I have read suggests.  A musical with deaf and hearing actors, one in a wheel chair.  Deaf actors dancing!  An assemble so tight that they seem to breathe as one.  A chilling story of Victorian (?) oppression and teenagers being the fearless explorers that they naturally are.  A wonderful set, incredible lighting-such rich fare for eyes and ears.

I wanted to see this show.

But

It has a limited run and tickets were scarce and expensive.  I didn’t imagine I had a chance of seeing it and these days I suffer more than usual from not seeing theater.

But

I was enamored by the show and joined its website a few months back. Then last week, there was an announcement that in honor of the ADA (Americans with Disabilities Act) 25th anniversary, they would be offering a few $25 tickets for thanksgiving week.  I clicked through and bought two for the Wednesday matinee (the only tickets I could find) before I knew who I would take, so amazed that I really got them!  A friend and I sat in god’s heaven-the ensemble work only enhanced by our bird’s eye view.  It was marvelous!  And I was very grateful for the gift.

We celebrated at Cheshire’s boyfriend’s family with more food and conversation than any one person could take on.  It was delightful with at least one parting comment that someone hadn’t gotten to really talk to me and a hope I would be back before next thanksgiving.  Cheshire surprised me by arranging for an old friend from Woodstock (the town, not the festival) to join us.  We talked our way through the 24 hours of his visit.  Wise friends are truly a gift.

I wished I had taken more pictures.  I am happy I could enjoy the presentness of the moments without the need to record.  And on return, I fit back into my day-to-day, squirm a bit not much, and I feel a growing awareness that I will return.  I do need to live in that city again.

 

The last Camp AweSum photos

Looking for how to keep the entire gallery on the front page of the blog.

Path to the labyrinth

Thursday and Julia said she is sad to think about going home. She is horseback riding this morning and if the weather holds we will do it together this afternoon. Weather has not been good by summer vacation standards. We have a lovely lake and beach, and canoes, kayaks and paddle boats. I have not had my bathing suit on to take the swim test, neither has Julia. And the beach has been empty. We have not minded; we are busy. Art activities, four baskets woven, shirts tie died, and painting, puzzling and rainbow loom. Walks and camp fires and an evening dance. Julia has not asked for her iPad and more often I must discipline myself to find time to write.

In the grey with peaks of sun and blue, I find a quiet joy and it is joy aplenty.

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Camp AweSum

Monday morning around 3: First night at camp and I am not sleeping. For no good reason. Tired from the 4-hour drive up to the northern part of Wisconsin. Lake country up here. And more pine trees lining the road than disiduous varieties. We are installed in a tidy cabin with a view of Moon Lake at Camp AweSum, a week long camp for families with kids on the autism spectrum. Gentle rain falls, light blanket temperature quite nice for slumber and sheets from home that are worn soft with washing and wear. Julia has her own room but a few cracks of thunder brought her into my bed. There is room for both of us but not when I need to turn on the light and dig into a book.

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Ci vediamo dopo

View from inside the Doge's palace.
View from inside the Doge’s palace.

Julia and I painted masks yesterday. Venetian masks and mask making are part of the culture although for most of the time masks that were not theatrical were not decorated or made to stand out. Masking made the wearer anonymous. Sometimes in the same way that Clark Kent’s glasses hid his identity as superman. It was enjoyable to experience how they paint modern masks although I wanted to be more daring in my painting instead of careful. Julia was, of course, the very definition of daring.

Today is our last day in Venice, in Italy, and thoughts turn to a summing up. Venice is not an easy city to crack. If it were not so utterly charming, I wonder if it would have been abandoned a long time ago as a tourist destination. It is like a very difficult friend, fascinating and essential but damned inconvenient. Like my mask painting, I have not proven to be a sufficiently daring city explorer and will leave tomorrow feeling like I have not discovered a true Venice. I can blame that one the heat but just in part. Am I intrepid enough to for this town?

Venice is an impossible maze of tiny foot paths among innumerable bridges. The largest streets are one car lane wide. There are some street names painted at the corners of buildings but you can walk for a long time in places with no clue to names. If there are names. And this is in the tourist part of town. We have walked a fair amount here, not as much as we would have if it were cooler. We have not passed a single grocery store or a butcher or a bakery for non tourists. There is one fruit stand with barge that we pass often and we have found a fancy appliance store but most everyday shopping for Venetians has eluded us. I take that to mean that we have not penetrated the Venice of inhabitants. There are Venetians living among us-there is a second floor library with floor to ceiling windows opened onto a small canal that I look at nightly, but I assume that for the most part the Venice of daily living is tucked into corners of the city in which most tourists don’t walk. Perhaps the explanation is that Venetians don’t need to buy the same things that the rest of us do.

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anniversary

imageSetting: San Marco Piazza at 6. Definitely late afternoon and not early evening. We sit on the shady side of the square at one of those impossibly expensive cafes. The sitting charge, usually a euro or two at very nice restaurants, is 6€ here. Julia eating a sundae, gelato, whipped cream, chocolate and bananas. She will finish it, I am sure but this is probably super. It is huge.

I have a tanquerai and tonic with ice. Ice! The waiter brings all this on a silver tray that sits on our small table. There is also a small glass bowl full of potato chips and another with olives. Good inducements to drink more.

As romantic as this could be imagined, there are more tourist families here than couples gazing into each other’s eyes. Pure smaltz and packaged dreams but it is where I am today. Five years ago today. Another anniversary of a living I didn’t know I’d have. The birth day of this life. Another year without David. I could toast myself for making it this far. For observing in Venice, not hiding at home or even surrounding myself with friends. A five piece band strikes up, begin the beguine. Julia sways as if she is dancing. There is still a lot of Frank Sinatra played in cafes here and songs from old Broadway musicals. I don’t feel foolish listening at home to Italian pop from 30 years ago.

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The family chapel

imageShame faced I must admit that my absolute requirement for luncheon is air conditioning. There are a million wonderful outdoor restaurants that were calling out to us; I just couldn’t stay in the heat. We followed directions to a place recommended by a bunch of guide books, knowing it was only outside, hoping I’d be willing to sit in the heat when we got there, but, no! Does the necessity of air conditioning make me an ugly American? If so, I embrace the title. And celebrate the Fourth of July. Always disconcerting to spend an American holiday in a foreign land. Not that I expect everyone to celebrate what I celebrate but it always a reminder that what is special for me or mine is just another day for someone else. And vis a versa. Perhaps we could celebrate some special day every day.

I read over yesterday’s offering and was a bit abashed at my complaining; however, to add to the minor irritants of the day, I add that tomorrow, July 5, is the fifth anniversary of David’s death and I am never at my strongest in the days leading up to the anniversary day.

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The other side of wonderful

imageNot all is perfect or amazing or kind or wonderful. We are having a day or two of that. I don’t have the luxury of complaining to someone or really being cranky. Julia is somewhat responsive when I tell her that the day is frustrating me and I have a head ache which is pretty good for her. I am at the point in the trip of really missing adult contact. Unfortunately, the Florence contact that I had was not responsive when I tried to get in touch and I didn’t pursue him further. On the train to Venice, I see that was a mistake. There was no conversation in the breakfast room at the convent. We went early and late depending on the day but the most there would be would be a single person either leaving as we entered or coming as we left. Breakfast was not impressive-juice, bread, butter, jam and coffee or milk-which was fine to start our day but it was pretty basic and others may have gone out for breakfast. I am growing a bit lonely but still grateful for the ability to write here and the comments and likes that kind readers offer.

On another note, breakfast always included a jar of Nutella and Julia has managed to eat Nutella every day of this vacation. She has not tired of pasta and last night recognized the dish she wanted on the menu in Italian. Speghiti con pomodoro e basilica. Not a great translation feat but I was proud of her. She is also ready to have pizza for any meal and has found Italian chopped liver to be very good. Me too for that last one. The chopped liver we’ve eaten in Italy is generally more saltier and pasty than the Jewish variety that David made.

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